Hey, they should do a reverse version of Faking It where a couple of lesbians pretend to be straight so they’re accepted!
They could call it “Real Life”.
Not to mention the acting is frigid and downright terrible.
So I was bored while running the treadmill at the gym and finally stopped procrastinating and decided to start VA. So I was like “fuck it I will look in the end of the book and ruin it for myself” and instantly came face to face with this note from dayumpeer telling me not to do that xD I laughed so hard this dude stared at me like wtf o.o Ahaha I took your warning and didn’t spoil it for myself which is a first! That was a sign I could not betray.
So I had a mental breakdown around 11 tonight because the room was a horrible mess(Derek and I tend to make it that way on a daily basis.) and my ocd was really getting the best of me to the point of shaking and wanting to violently punch shit and cry and scratch everywhere. I decided I felt too cooped up so I went to work out for a couple of hours at the gym. I came home around 2:30 this morning to find the room absolutely spotless, and my desk even organized. There was this diet soda (apparently as “fresh as prince” so Derek would say) and a this piece of paper that read:
“I hope this makes the room at least standable. I love you and I hope you had a great work out:) -Derek Green”
I couldn’t be luckier than be matched with a guy who not only accepts my severe anxiety, ocd, and depression, but a guy who does everything in his power- like staying up until 1am on a school night to clean a room- to make it all better. He doesn’t treat me any differently when I have my attacks. He just sits there, lets me rant, helps me breathe, and does everything to just make it even a little better.
Rather than being with a guy who I believe makes me who I am, I am with one that completes and compliments me instead. I think that is a hell of a lot more romantic.
tldr: my boyfriend is helping me accept myself simply by accepting me when I was told no one ever could. And I am absolutely in love with that.
(I also realized while jogging that in a month comes our 2 year anniversary. Where the hell did that time go?)